I have had an interesting couple of weeks!!! But you know I am still hanging stronger then ever. I am a nice girl and don't need people walking all over me, like they supposedly think they can, But you know what I don't stand for that people. I am a nice girl and i will give you anything I have. If you need money I will give you my last dollar. But I will not give up my dignity. People who say they know me, they don't really know me regardless of the fact that I wear my heart on my sleeve!!! But all I can trust is the fact that My God knows me from the inside deep , and outside. better then anyone who has ever tried. I have been hurt before so yes i know what it feels like but you know what that has been the past and I am free from it and never to bring it up. But all I can say is that its so great ot be free. People in this world always say that you can trust them. But how can you if they continuously lie to you over and over. ... Ha ha I am going to stop because this is not going any where good,, and I am venting in the wrong place. So I am sorry people.

But on the other note......... God is so good you know!!!!!! Yesterday He has blessed me here it is.... The day after CHristmas I got really sick and ended up in the emergency room. a couple of months later got a huge bill over  two thousand dollars and didn't have insurance to be correct. But went down to the hospital and went to get in surance to see if the would help me out. and they told me i was elgiable and said that they would pay for the bill and also that if i end up in the emergency in the next twelve months I would also have nothing to pay except for the doctor its is called charity care. For those who think that New Jersey is cheap you got us all wrong...........HAHA!!!!!!!!

But today I have spent time with my brother and my sister-in-law and my friend and it was a great, great time.... watching movies, talking, playing games and all the good stuff. All I can say more is that God is great.He is all I want. All I need. And all I could ever ask for. How can it be any better then this....

IF YOU SEEK HIM YOU WILL FIND HIM!!!!! WHAT ARE YOU SEEKING FOR TODAY!!!!!!!!!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Okay, I have heard this song and its being goin through my head over and overl its actually in the bible. Also," It talks about  you can hear this nation and generation cry out and moan for its creater, Its moan is almost like the cry a mother gives when she is giving birth to her child." It made me think about This creation is crying out for something more something thatis supernatural, some thing that makes them cry out for MORE because they can't settle for less. The cry getts deeper and its hurts alittle more because the creater is wanting them to return home. Like the prodigal son. He wants to offer you so much more then drugs can give you, so much more then sex, alchol, any of this stuff the world says you need to get you by the problems we face everyday. In reality, we are blinded; blinded by the things of this world, So we can't see the creator of this creation,The creator who we call Jesus! We search through the worldly things and we give them a try, but when that doesn't seem to work, we try something else, and when some one mentions Jesus they are so quick to defend and put up there guards But they never even decide to give The one who died, and was bruised and spit at and cursed at a chance. Until they hit that point in their life where they got nothing else, they hit rock bottom. Got no where else to turn. And they scream finally the name of "Jesus"  and Jesus enters and says welcome home my son. and washes the dirt from your face. And looks at you as his precious jewel that is so much more valuable then gold. And says I love you more then anything. You say your nothing, I(Jesus) say your more then gold, you say your worth nothing, I say your worth it all. You say I am not loved and I say that you are my "Beloved" " my one and only"  You say I am dirty. " and I say you are now clean" God bless you Hope some one gets blessed.